goodbye grey skies hello blue!

Well, not literally as what the title says. cause lancaster is always raining! but yeap! emo moment gone right on the very next day!!! Alhamdulillah. I hate being all so emo. ANYWAY, i received 3 parcels on the very next day!!! i just repeated "the very next day" twice. make it 3 including the one i just wrote. :P i was well happy when i saw my name on the list at the porter's lodge! i hardly get any parcels so like to get one (in this case 3) was like OOoooOo!!!! AHAHHAHA. well i knew i was gonna get some parcels going on but not at the same time! so it got me all hyped up! hehehe. One was from my parents! woot woot! :D one was frm Amazon! (but buku account.. booooo :P) and the other was from DELL!!! the dell one really got me. i really thought i would be getting back my netbook next week! i didn't realise that it had the cellotape saying dell on one of the sides u see. i opened it and it had this big air bag going on and i saw something green inside it. i was like.. WHAT IS THIS?! then i took it out and i went "AAAaaAA!!!" ahahaha. yea, gave a little scream of joy. i hope nothing goes wrong with it now. :)

must take very good care of my new lappy now. i shall call it.. Little Jade.

Oh, i still haven't talked about my Paris trip yea. will do that once i get pictures from my fren. :P V-day is just around the corner!! JUST RIGHT AROUND THERE. and Chinese New Year falls on the same day! dong dong dong chang! This year's V-day, i had invited my girlfrens to come over for dinner :) am cooking! :D lalalalalala. i can't wait! Every year i would do something on V-day. it's just fun! spreading a little bit of love aiiiight!

Oh, i did a presentation on the QSR industry just now. glad it's over n done with! now i can concentrate on other stuff. but anyway, gosh, everytime i practice my presentation, i get all hungry! it was on Burger King, Pizza Hut, Subway and what not.. dang! but yea i think we did well just now :) I THINK we did. hehehe.

am gonna give myself a break for tonight, and tomorrow night and also the night after that. HAHAHA every night this weekend i've got plans. busy busy. :) better plan my days yo! toodles for now!

Dear blog....

Dear blog, i'd never thought i would write this, selfish of me to feel this way

But

sometimes i feel that i value my friends too much. It hurts me that they don't value me as much. I don't blame them. Definitely NO.

But

sometimes i just wish they don't just assume things about me. assume things that i like, what i don't like. assume that i'm not interested in going. things that i've said, one can change their mind can't they?

Sometimes i wish they would value me as much. Some of them never invite me for anything. They don't see it as a big deal.

But

to me, yes it is. that's just me.

Sometimes i even feel that some of them don't really like me. I'm just a person for them to talk to. that's it. not a friend. Sometimes they don't even talk to me about other things. It's just on one thing. I feel dumb when that happens. I know other things too. Even if i don't i can learn, they can explain to me.

Friends whom i've never seen for a long time or been in contact is different, but it hurts more when they are my close friends.

I guess i view the word 'friend' in a different picture than them. i never like to see my friends sad. I feel guilty when i see them sad and unhappy. Why wasn't i there. Why are they sad? I'm always there to cheer them up. I know i'm not obliged to, but i'm their friend, and i think that's what friends are for.

Cliche as it may seem but "A friend in need, is a friend indeed".

Most of them never realise when i'm sad. Never. well maybe because i don't like to show it to them.

Most of my friends had never seen me cry (except my chaletmates & chalet neighbours). I never like people to see me get all teary. I have a thing for bottling up all these negative feelings inside me and when i do let it all out.. it really makes me depressed. It happens sometimes. Those who i can be manja with and not be judged are far away from me. Living in different states, we still do keep in touch but hard to see them in person anymore.

I never hated a friend, not now not ever. i love my friends (besides my family and god), ALL of them, no matter where they come from, how they look like, whatever their IQ level is, whatever! they are my friends. they are the ones who make me happy, whom i can laugh with, share my stressness, my drama life with but just sometimes...

this feeling.. all this that i just poured out to you dear blog, it'll pass. It'll go away very soon. I don't keep sadness in me for long. It is not healthy for me. :)

"Have friends not for the sake or receiving, but of giving"

-anonymous-

Another one of soraya's emo moments here.. huhu.

HOMG such a bz honey bee

OMG it's been such a long time since i last put up a post. This will be just a short post tho. I'm really really busy this month. I've got loads of courseworks and other uni stuff to deal with. Will update on my Paris trip last month & my "dramatic" life soon. ALSO, my laptop has broken down. It fails me again, i'm very disappointed with u, Lappy. Currently, i would have to go to the library or a comp. lab to go online.

So yea, till then, toodles everyone! wish me luck for my courseworks n test!! xx

and here i go!!!!

yuuhuuuu!!! :D it's time for my xmas holiday trip again!!! yeay!!! woo hoo!!! hehehe. this time, i'm off to Paris! finally!!! my plan to finish up my courseworks before i leave for paris had failed!!!! woe is me.. woe is me.. so i have myself to blame when i'm gonna be friggin stressed out when i come back. boo hoo! :( . travelling to Paris via Eurostar, hopefully everything will be okay. pray for me yea! pray that i'll reach my destinations safely. Amin. Will be off to london tomorrow, then paris on the 29th, like EARLY in the morning, have to be there at 4.45am! huhu. and then coming back to london, then head to manchester! will be back in Lancs in about 9 days time. (9 days time, my stress level will shoot up). k k wtv, will think about that later.

BOXING DAY! boxing day was kinda boring. BECAUSE this time, i was in lancaster! takperlah, there's always a first time for everything! right? right! not many shops were opened. and not all those shops were having like massive sales. Next was good. bought a bag from the RUnway COllection at a very reasonable price!!! love it! oh i bought a hot water bottle cover just now from Accessorize! isn't it cute!!?!?! geram tgk. :)


Alrighty, think i should get some early sleep! esok nak bgn pagi, walaupun ada wake up call but must try to wake myself up! omg, i once did this yoga called Wake up Yoga (my fren, Intan introduced it to me. she's full with all this yoga, belly dancing and what not! love it! hahah thanks babe!) anyway yea, and like there was this part where u have to breath in n out slowly, and u're suppose to do it lying on the bed. it was relaxing. AND YES... while i was doing that, i dozed off!! hahahha! when i woke up i was like.. WTH!?! ahahhahhaa. bongek gila. :p

till then,

"Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right"

-Oprah Winfrey-

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! :) xoxo

White Blanket of Snow :)

On the 21st of December 2009, it snowed heavily in.. well u know where when u watch the video!!! if u focus on the background, at the light, yea, heavy right? hahaha. LAME clip! cam gedik jugak pun ada. HAHAHHAHHA! :p who cares! it's snowing!!! woot woot!!

AWESOME

Indoor Skiing!!!!

Nadia Farhan, me, Andy (our ski instructor), Farrah, Bebeh, & Nana

Luging!!

I went indoor skiing and luging on the 14th!!!! it was AWESOME!! hahahahha. my fren accidentally booked the ski session for those who knew how to ski. Nadia n i are the only ones who tumbled over. The rest didn't go up the hill. I fell face first cause i got stuck at the lift. My ski came off, and yes, i kissed the snow. My lips went numb! ahhaha. Nadia on the other hand fell back when she was on the lift. The security got her first. Then another security got me when i was at the top after i fell. we felt like immigrants! ahhahahahaha! i had to walk down that steep hill! WALK okay! heih. well it was an adventure alright! hahaha! well, the security guy then helped to change our tickets to the taster session! :D

Luging! it's jsut like going down a slide with a sled! it was going really fast! and like u feel as if u're about to make a full turn when u're making a turn! i don't know how to explain. :P . it was fun!!! went on it 6 times i think. hahahahha.

Our ski instructor, Andy was sooo funny! he's like high or something. everything we say he'll respond with an "AWEESOMEE" or "COOOL" hahahahaha. like gaya2 mamat2 stone. lawak gila. and when he found out we were from Lancaster Uni, he was so excited cause his gf studies there too! kept talking about his gf and how bad the weather's like in Lancs. hahahaha! we felt like he was just pulling our legs when he was teaching us some ski stuff. we had to like, ski down on one leg, ski down while doing the action "head & shoulders, knees & toes!", ski down and make some jumps, and also ski down backwards!!!! and we all kept laughing at each other and he was like "why do u guys keep laughing at ur frens??" hahaha. apa lar. i really enjoyed myself that day! :D

Bebeh & I

I've been quite close with her for the past few weeks. Back when she was in my uni, i wasn't that close with her, but after we had like a sleepover, we got close! yesterday, she flew back to Brunei for good. :( huhuhu. I'm gonna miss her!!!! God's will, i'll visit Brunei one day! :) xx

Apa khabar?

Nescafe's new premium coffee called Suraya! hihihihi

i was walking along one of the aisle in Sainsbury's and something caught my eye! yes! that coffee! ahahaha i just had to take a pic of it. ;) . i wonder how it tastes like..

oh don't mind the title, i realise yesterday that the abangs who work at Pizzetta and Sultan knows i'm for malaysia and just love to go Apa Khabar? then when i answer, Baik! they just stood there like dunno what to say after that. HAHAHAH. bongek.

not sure whether i've mentioned this before, but am gonna say it anyway! :p i just love it when someone who i don't know is being nice to me. be it a girl or a boy, i just find it sooo nice. because to me, i know that it's sincere. for example, last Wednesday, (mula dah dia ngn story dia.. hehe), i went to the comp. lab to print out my coursework and promised my fren to meet up with her there. When i went in, there were two guys, a brit and a chinese. so minding my own business, i sat, sign in my name, and wait for the comp, to log on. tunggu punya tunggu, tak on on! cam bapak lembap! so i was twirling on my seat, ahhahah. u know that office chair that u can turn around n around. yea, so then while was turning, then i accidentally made eye contact with the chinese dude, so cam like.. uh oh, tgk balik computer screen. he was sitting behind me btw, after that i saw from the reflection of the computer screen that the chinese dude, let's call him CD for now, was coming towards me. i was like, WHAT. what does he want from me! then he said "the computer is not working. all of em" i was like "OH. erm.." the brit was using a laptop but he was using one of the comp! i didn't know what to do, cause i've promised my fren to meet there and while i was about to sms my fren and tell her to meet somewhere else, he said "do u want to print? u can use my comp." so i went to his computer and asked him whether he has finished using it and to kindly log out. he then said "i think if i log out, and u log in, u won't be able to use it". i went "but i'm going to print." (this would mean, i'm gonna use ur print credit! it's ur money!) but he was being such a nice person, he just said go ahead.

so, THEN, while i was opening my essay, he was packing his stuff, he said "are u from malaysia?" i was like, EHHHH, how did this CD know where i'm from? usually, assuming that he's from CHina, they wouldn't know where i'm from. i was like YEA!! how did u know?!? then he said "by the way u talk" i was like.. OMG. like how. well i guess, my facial expression gave him that, so he was like, cause i'm from singapore! :) . then i was like, NO WONDER!! ahahahaha. was about to strike a conversation, then my fren came and i had to open the door. so when i was taling to my fren about the coursework, he just stood there behind me for like a minute or two. and i felt really bad cause it's his account and his money am using. then he just told me to log off after i'm done. when he was about to go out i just called up to him and said Nice to meet u!! and he smiled and off he go. I was sooo curious to know his name! i just had to so i searched in the comp, since it's his acc am using. so i tried to find him on fb, but failed to do so. the next day as i was walking with my fren, i asked her "do u remember how that guy look like? i can't really recall" and then when i look infront, there he was! i was like, isn't it this guy? then he saw me and said hi! so i did too and my fren went, THAT WAS HIM!!! i was like yea!! ahahahhahaha.
YESTERDAY, i was in my lecture, AND HE WAS THERE!! all this time, he was in the same lecture as i am!! cam apakah bongeknya soraya. dah satu term mamat tuh satu lecture ngn kau. hahaha. i know that this guy existed but i didn't know that he would be CD. it's the way he dressed i guess? at the comp lab he had like a leather jacket (as told by my fren, i didn't really look at him n what he was wearing, was focusing on my work but my fren had a good look at him) well I THINK that it's him. side view, he looks the same. but i still am not 100% sure. wanted to like make eye contact and see whether he'll smile at me cause he recognises me but i don't recognise him. but there's this girl who's sitting next to him n blocking the way. pergh. anyway yea, i think it's him. and u know what, tomorrow will be the last lecture! :( .

anyhoo! on a random note, I MADE CHOC FUDGE THE OTHER DAY!!! i made something that i can't eat! ahhahaa. it's called non-baking choc fudge. i just put it in the fridge to set it! it has biscuits, walnuts n raisins in it :) . i had a few of my frens as my subjects to test it. HAHAHHA. and they said it was good! i tasted it myself, a bit, and it wasn't that bad! :) yay for me!
here's a pic of it. not that pretty but hey, don't judge a book by it's cover!