When you're at the lowest point of your life, that feeling inside.. It's just a nasty feeling isn't it? All one can do is just cry it out. Pour it out whatever you call it. No matter what you do now, you can't change it. It might partly be my fault I guess for not being as prepared as I should be but I was not prepared for that. like that's it, if u get it alright, if u don't. bye bye. I still can't accept the fact that this is actually happening to me. I'm like a water pipe turning on and off. It's on right now as I'm writing this. pfft! I need to stop this as soon as possible, pull myself together and get myself a freaking 1st class honours!!!! I'll show them. U don't want me fine. There are other opportunities out there for me! It's not eeeverything. I'm sure someone out there sees me as a great person who will give great performance with the right people around me. Are all their people that great anyway? Do they speak fluent english? I might not be that awesome but yea.. They might not want me because I screw up part of what I went through and I'm not what they are looking for.
Oh well, everything happens for a reason and I'm sure Allah has better plans for me.
I have always been a happy cheerful person and I'm not gonna let this ruin my life.
Dear god, I'm trying my best to stay strong and as positive as I can, please give me the strength to do so. Aamin.
Berusaha Soraya!!!! Ganbatte!
p/s: If any of the comments relates to the question why so.. I shall not answer. I hope you understand. thank you. :)