when was the last time I..

So, before this, I made myself clear that my priority is to get myself a job before I go about having a boyfriend. Now that I've secured myself a job which I'm happy with.. I don't know how to start.

 I don't want to look for one cause like what the hell, cam desperate je. 

I am looking (literally) but not doing anything about it. 

  I just miss going out on dates and getting the attention. lol.

The last time I went out on a date would be 2 years ago but wait don't think that counted as a date tho. I went out with that guy cause I wanted to know what he had to say to me. Out of the blue confession case. 

Anyway, that didn't work out cause at that time, I wanted to concentrate on my studies and when it comes to boys, they are eye candies and that's just about it. So i guess the last time i went out on a date would be when I was 16. WAAAHHHH dasyat gila. (sendiri terkejut please..)

Now, it seems like almost everyone is getting married at my age. I'm 24 btw. yer tak tua sangat pun tapi semua orang cam tunang lah kahwin la and here I am, someone who's not even seeing anyone.

Yes, I know there are loads of people who are in the same shoes as I am.

One of my friends told me that I'm not socializing enough. Honestly, I have to say I haven't been going out much with my friends. I haven't seem them for quite some time now. Socializing in term of meeting new frens (especially the opposite sex) was what one of my friends was referring to. The thing is, unfortunately when some of my frens/colleagues invite me to hang out, something would always come up and I won't be able to make it. So, lost the opportunity to make new friends or get to know that person that i'm having a slight crush on right now. LOL. (and with my shy issue around guys that I'm attracted to, not helping either)

I'm trying my best to not be as shy as I used to be but I hardly meet this slight crushie of mine. hampa.

I don't know whether I just sound pathetic or not. I don't care really. Lepaskan perasaan je ni.

hahaha. oh well, kalau ada jodoh, takkan ke mana ye tak? tapi kalau tak berusaha pun apa2 pun tak jadi. 

so kena berusaha, tapi tak tau nak buat apa. LOL.  

Yer, berusaha Soraya!!! One fine day, yes!

AAANYWAY, I should head off to slumberland now.
Buenas noches muchachos & muchachas! 

xoxo, Soraya

back from Johor!

I just got back from Johor yesterday evening and gosh it was so tiring. Spent one whole week in Johor for work. Although, i still haven't had enough rest, i was out today for 12 hours, facial, lunch, went to meet my fren who's back for summer holiday and then off to One utama with mom n dad. penaaat. then tomorrow, off to get a new phone!!!! yeay!!!!! InsyaAllah dapat lah kan. hahaha. i won't be getting one of the latest phones definitely cause i'm not a tech geek and i don't really dig into those apps. janji boleh check email, google stuff, sms n call, it's good to go. :)

2 weeks ago, I went out with my some of my close friends from college and mmg lepas rindu habis lah. haha. after the guys left, us girls were so excited that we could then gossip about our love life. the thing with us girls, when you put a whole lot of single girls together, the main topic will always be about bila nak dapat boyfriend. HAHAHAHA. one of my frens came to the conclusion that something's wrong with us. lol. on my side, I can't argue with that cause i've got social issues when it comes to people that i like. hahahaha. i shall not comment further. dah pernah tulis pasal ni kan. lalalalaala~

Anyway, I feel like Malaysia is not safe anymore. I got back yesterday and all i hear is about kidnapping news. one of it happened The Curve. THE CURVE people!!!! i go there a lot and i'ld never thought a kidnapping scene would happen there and thank god the girl managed to escape! early this morning, i heard about an attempt kidnapping news on the radio. apa nak jadi ngn malaysia ni? It's so scary ok. It's sad to know that my beloved country is no longer safe. haih. kes culik anak "somebody" punyalah sibuk, but anak2 orang lain yg kena culik, takder pun semangat, takder pun nak berusaha gila2.  apa beza nya anak orang lain dengan anak orang berada. haih.

I know this post has random stuffs in it, no connection at all but i just felt like blurting out whatever i'm thinking about. :)

aiiiight, it's good to be back to my comfy bed! *golek2 atas katil* ;p

xoxo, Soraya

not myself when...

wanna know something? well some of u might know this cause apparently it's obvious (according to some frens of mine). I don't act like myself when i'm around the guy that i like. I am shy. WTH right? macam tak je kan. lol. but yes, it's only when it comes to someone i have a crush on (or slight crush) i'll turn into this shy person which sometimes make that person think that i'm arrogant / sombong. huhuhu. it's just that i go all speechless, and shall not look at that person in the eye for too long.  hahahaha. and maintain lah kan. I want to be myself but i somehow can't bring myself to that. for example today, i could have just voiced out and say, hey come join us here! i would have if he was some other person. instead i just let him passed by when i think he wanted to join us but none of our frens saw him passed by. so he just walked away. kesian dia. I can't even bring myself to say hi to that person cause i just feel so shy. it's like the other person have to initiate it first then i can let loose and be myself. lambat sikit nak warm up. hahahaha. haih. :)

xoxo, Soraya 

oh U K

I MISS ENGLAND. I miss my freedom there. I miss the air there. YES. THE AIR. THE FRESH AIR. (in Lancaster that is) London does not have fresh air. haha. I miss eating whatever I want. I miss cooking. I miss the food that is available there. I miss everything about my uni life in UK. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

(not relating to me missing UK).
Life can be soooo unfair sometimes. And sometimes you just wonder, why are all these unhappy things happening to u. And you know you've gotta stay strong and have positive thoughts. And try to stay happy no matter what cause you only get to live once. 

xoxo, Soraya 

super busy me

I haven't been this busy ever!

I've got so many things on hand.

I'm actually kinda freaked out.

Takut tak siap and then i'm doomed.

cam tak cukup doomed dah kan.

A lot of things happened since the last post.

I won't blab about it now.

Ok, just one short one, last Monday, didn't have the MOnday Blues. not even a bit! causeeee..

I had a role in the co.'s corp. video. Had shooting on that day. Got all dolled up.

Felt like an artist. Turned out to look like a friggin stewardess. hahaha.

Acted as the "chairman's secretary".

oh well. one step to being famous! HAHAHA RIGHT -_-"

AAAANYWAY,

I think i'll have time to post some other stuff after May 10th.

On a diff note, I'll be going to Russell Peters Notorious World Tour 2012!!!

So excited! finally something to look forward to.

Now let's hope there's someone for me to look forward to in the near future.

haha. kidding. need to get my life settled out first.

xoxo,

Soraya

saat2 mencuci mata

hahahaha! so basically, for those who don't understand the title of this post, cuci mata literally means washing the eyes BUT sometimes it's a term used to describe one's act of looking at someone that's nice to look at. aka, sedap mata memandang. hihihihi.

So, these past few days, someone interesting has been coming to the office everyday since Tuesday. I hardly get to cuci mata nowadays. boo~ anyhoo, Soraya pun mengambil kesempatan untuk mencuci mata. like hello, kasi can sikit ok. i'm like kinda stressed out with work this week. at least, there's something interesting kan.

plus, i'm single, so I don't feel guilty :p cuci mata JER pun :)
as compared to uni life, hari2 cuci mata and it's like every now and then cuci mata sebenarnya. HAHAHA. until i'm immune to it. hambik kau.. immune. lol.

and now i'm missing it like crazy. i know a few of my frens would totally agree with me ;) u know who u are. haha.

alright, need to get on with work!

ganbarimasu!

berusaha kita!

xoxo, Soraya

busy little bee

So last week, I went to Janda Baik for 7 days. holiday? NEY, i went for work.

It was a school holiday camp for kids and youth where they learn about personal safety, sex education, self-defense and much more.

It was really interesting and fun!

I was one of the facilitators and I myself learned some new stuffs too. lol.

Since we were in Janda baik, and our camp was just along the river, we went into the river almost everyday. ALMOST. haha. I only went in fully (before that takat gedik2 main2 air kat tepi je ahahha) during the girls' camp. well yea cause have to make sure they don't go too far cause the current was quite strong. the girls really had a fun time splashing water at me. didn't wanna get drenched at first, but they were like Kak soraya masuk lah masuk lah! and i'm like.. haa takper takper. saya kena jaga korang. then they saw me shiver and they were like OMG KAK SORAYA MENGGIGIL. like YES GIRLS!!! I'M COLD. WHAT DO U EXPECT. so i decided to dip in cause it wouldn't be too cold then and yessss, right after they saw me dipped in, i got up and YEAY!!!! SPLASH SPLASH SPLASH. there was only one soraya facing 10 teenage girls. pfft! kena bully. oh well. it was fun nevertheless.

the facilitators took shifts every night to just guard around just in case if anything happens. so i picked the 4am-6am shift during the girls' camp. it was freakin cold during that hour!!!! but lovin the fresh air. and apparently another faci saw a 'pontianak' across the river, on top of a tree around 2.30am. THANK GOD, i didn't look up at the trees across the river when i was doing my shift. it didn't even cross my mind anyway about all these things.

During the kids camp, i had to become a fireman, but i'll talk about it once i have the picture. hehe. i made new frens! they were so nice and we clicked instantly. some girls are so easy to make friends with. i love that. :) but they're all in a different division, so hardly gonna see them again. huhu.

I got back on thursday night, and friday morning i was back at the office facing a pile of workload on the desk. HORROR. and the amount of deadline this week is just crazyyyyy. HAIH.

let's hope there's a bit of a breather for me next week. fighto-OH!

xoxo, Soraya