it is soooo near...

what it so near?? my A levels result is will be coming very very SOON... i'm sooo freaked out.. waaaaa.. went to MOC.. and found out that it'll (the results) be out before the 10th.. mr. zaidi was the one who told us. pam n i think that most probably 7th or 8th kut. mr. zaidi was at MOC to give a short talk.. for those who doesn't know what MOC is.. MOC stands for Muslim Overseas Camp which was held at Pusat Pemantapan Akidah Jakim, Jelebu. gosh, Jelebu was soooo hot n dry!!! and when it's early in the morning, it was freakin cold!! before this, the place was called pusat pemulihan akidah.. semua orang cam WHAT?! hahahaha. rasa cam kitorang nih suma budak2 bermasalah jer.. thank god they change the name.. sounds much better now. our dorm was full of writings on the wall.. must be from the boys yang henda dipulihkan akidahnya.. all sorts of stuff were written on the wall. there was one about seeing a ghost and asking the person who's sleeping on the 3rd bed to beware.. guess who sleeps on the 3rd bed.. fiza n i.. huhuhu.. alangkah cuak nya kami.. bongek betul.. but of course, nothing happened. no ghosts or whatever. had a drawing of a sixpack cartoon at the wall behind my bed.. macam2 lah. the talks were very beneficial.. about fasting, praying and others.. it wasn't boring n dead like some talks as the ustaz was funny. he made it interesting! :) our facilitators were seniors from our college and a few from Kolej Mara Banting. they were very helpful. telling us about what to bring n buy. i'm glad i went to MOC. got to c my frens n learn new stuffs.

SO anyway, i'm really really nervous about my result right now. if it's good. i'll be happy. extremely happy to be exact. and continue my life with happiness. :P if it's bad.. ohmaigawd. i'll be in my room banjir for sure. and the days to come will be gloomy. my parents are being sooo confident that i can make it. it's driving me crazy cause i myself am not that confident that i'll make it. i hate it when they do that. confident sangat anak diorang dapat fly.. sekali kalau tak dapat macam mana.. kan dah malu. bgtau semua orang yg anak dia nanti fly.. now a lot of people tau. cuba kalau tak dapat macam mana? siapa yg paling malu dan sedih? anak diorang jugak kan? ada diorang pikir pasal tuh? takde.. diorang cuma fikir anak diorang dapat fly. dah fikir dah kat UK nanti macam mana. nak ikut sekali lar itu lah ini la. result anak diorang dah kuar ke? belum.. they have no idea that it's pressuring their child don't they?? no they don't.. can the child tell them this? no.. why? cause she herself doesn't want to think what will happen if she doesn't make it. why? cause it'll make her sad. why? cause she really really wants to go. i think i'm getting carried away. i'll just have to have faith.. pray to god.. hope for the best..